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29 aprile Why should I bother?Just when I thought my life was going well ... it suddenly turns to shit. So why do I bother at all? I'm going to the school I want, finally but why should I bother trying to fix my life? The plan I laid out to make certain other plans happen means nothing without the end goal. When will the end goal be reinstated? Who knows. Does it hurt? Every second. I can't be alone without breaking down into tears.
The feeling of finally feeling whole and unbroken has disolved. I think it was just illusion to begin with. I think I am destined to be a lonely, broken woman. My bug doesn't need to see me that way all the time. I need to her to be happy, healthy and whole. I don't want my life to be hers. I want so much for her but I can't be there.
So thanks to the people I talked to that I thought I could trust because someone else told me they could be trusted.
Everyone can just forget me. No, I won't be fine. Nothing wil ever be okay again. |
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