I tested for the LRFD.  The written  test was Friday ... I missed a day of work to take the test.  Which was okay because I really didn't want to drag my ass out of bed after being up most of the night at Barnes & Noble for the Harry Potter Midnight Magic party   (Yes, I've read it.  It's awesome!  I'm on my second time through.)  Okay ... now I'm waiting for the reults. 

 

I found out that MEMS (the local  meat wagon .... I mean ambulance service) is doing a rookie class and soon.  I put my rookie school packet in ages ago!  So where the hell is my phone call?!?  The pay sucks but I'd be doing something I like.

 

My final hearing is on Monday.  I need a witness and i haven't got one.  I have plenty of folks who could do it but no one to watch the kid and be with me.  Without one I'm screwed.  Especially if the toad shows up.  Which I've heard he might. try to be.  Hopefully he won't be there.  He thinks it's Wednesday.

 

So, because I missed a day of work the check was short a day and now I haven't hte money to pay the car insurance, the car payment, the cell bill or the cable, phone and internet.  I didn't have the money to pay all that before but now I'm really screwed. 

 

I am really missing the paycheck I had 8 years ago.  All I had to do was pass a PT test and follow orders. and I was making probably double what I make now a month.  Why did I get out again?  Oh yeah I was becoming a spineless git.  Well ... that goes to show me that I should have followed my dreams instead of listening to the idiot I married.

 

So if anyone has vacation time ... I have a couch ... I need a kid sitter and a witness!  Feel free to email me for further details!

 

Isn't it great when you can read the positive stuff too?  It's things like this that make me proud to have been a soldier!  (As soon as I get the scanner working you'll see pics of me in uniform!)

Something that has been bugging me a lot lately ... my list of pet peeves. It seems as I've gotten older that they annoy me more. So if you can relate here are just some of my pet peeves (not necessarily the top ten but #1 is the biggest!) ...

10. People who don't move for flashing lights (red or blue)

9. People who can't see over the steering wheel.

8. People who change lanes without being nice enough to use their blinkers.

7. People who don't use their blinkers at all.

6. People who use both hands to talk on the cell phone, while driving. (They make me very nervous ... which hand is on the wheel?!?)

(Please note: most of them are related to driving! People in Arkansas can be nice but driving habits are awful! (no offense Amy. you don't fall into this catagory thankfully) There are a large number of Arkansasans (sp?!?) that are really scary to be driving!)

5. Bad grammar.

4. People who stare at me for no reason, like I've sprouted horns. (Those darn things are just supposed to be covered by my hair to hold up the halo!! Now, if it's followed by phrases like ... "You're hot" or "Wow, your beauty blinded me for a moment" then that's okay! )

3. People who treat others like they are garbage.

2. People who treat children (and other adults) like they are stupid and have no mind of their own.

1. People who use their kids as leverage.

"What do I mean by number one," you ask? Well, I am trying very hard to shield my very bright and intelligent 6 year old from the mean things I say about her daddy when I am angry. I endeavour to keep her from the war that could be coming over who gets to have sole custody. I think it will get very ugly. I have not tried to use her against him in any fashion, I try to be nice and I try to remember to have her call him when she should. (Hard when all I have is his CommuniKate number.)

Never once have I thrown it in his face to hurt him or cause any other mental anguish, especially when he was deployed to Iraq. To do so would be wrong. It would be using my child as leverage. He has nothing really that I want. Granted he probably makes more money than I do, but we're handling it in a legal court system. She will not attend the final hearing. She will be further shielded from the harshness that could go on. She'll be allowed to form her own opinions of her father at some point later in life and be happy knowing that I've not used her in any way to harm him mentally. (I've heard he's already losing his marbles (at least according to the Army) we don't need to cause anymore of that.)

I may be an evil bitch at times but I do have an ounce of compassion deep down somewhere in my toes.

I couldn't sleep again and I've been wondering about the term soulmate. How do you know when you've found that person? I thought, once upon a time, that I'd found mine. Do we really know? You never have more than one. My grandparents were soulmates. They loved each other with such great passion until the end of their days that I only hope I can have that too. So here's what I found:

Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, and/or compatibility.

A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul – thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join.

However, not everyone who uses these terms intends them to carry such mystical connotations; they are sometimes used simply as an expression of strong emotional feeling for someone.