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20 luglio My life so farSo how's my effing luck? I miss my best friend, I miss my kid (not
necessarily in that order.) and I'm getting sick of watching my
roommate and her boytoy slobbering all over each other. I've told her
it's very depressing to watch and she must have thought I was freaking
kidding. I'm not. Well ... as for my luck ... I seem to pick up guys that have issues with women. I met this guy here and I thought to myself ... (heh heh) he's a former marine and he's a lot like my best friend. He's got the most awesome eyes ever ... I am so jealous of them. They are blue, yet not. But they are always "clear". I really liked him and liked to spend time with him. But apparently I was getting too attached as I got pissed off when he canceled plans on me at the last minute and went out with someone else. Uh dur hello? Of course I'm going to be mad. I had made all my plans around the opportunity to hang out with someone I could have good and intelligent conversation with. The conversation never turned into an all about him fest. So, now I'm stuck. I know his issues and I'm okay with them. But my frelling OCD is kicking in. I have to fix whatever broke. Oh wait I was honest with him is what it was. I think the big bad tough marine started to crack and I was getting too close. I can't get him to tell me as he has stopped talking to me. So, I'm stuck with nothing really to do. I haven't alot of friends here and the ones I did have are all running on their own thing. I was so depressed over the deal yesterday I spent most of the day crying. Yup these classes are awesome. I now know a lot about things that I experienced for a long time and it sucks. Anyway. So I miss the friend that I had and I know I always fuck things up. So that's my luck. It sucks. I liked it here alright but now it's getting really rough. I miss my baby girl, I miss my best friends, I miss my boys at the department. I miss running calls and I really miss my baby girl. |
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